If The Shoe Fits – Episode 8 – A New Dawn Pt 2

If The Shoe Fits – Episode 8 – A New Dawn Pt 2

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I needed time to breathe, to think and make logical decisions. Of course Preye and I didn’t get to watch our movie again, I just wanted to go home and bury my head in my pillow. But my sister was having none of that. She said, If Chris was having fun and not sorry about it, then I shouldn’t have to be the miserable one.

In true Preye style, we ended up at the club and to be honest, in that moment, I forgot about everything and let my hair down. I guess it was a mix of the alcohol and the DJ. It was as if he was on cue that I’d be there, but he played all my favorite songs from the years when I knew what it was to have a good time and it brought back so many fond and happy memories.

Preye and Tonye at the club

We danced and laughed and made new friends, it was such a fun night and it was all I needed to remind me of who I was and what I really wanted. We left at about 4 am and on our way home, I told Preye what I had been thinking.

“Sissy”, I started as I turned to look at her, “Thank you. Thank you for being there for me. I’ve been thinking, well not for so long”, I said and giggled. “Thing is, after tonight, I think it’s time to do things differently. I have stayed on in this mess for too long and tried to cope with my situation because I’ve always felt it’s the right thing to do, especially for my kids, but Preye I’m not happy.

I haven’t been happy and it’s been 9 years of this silent misery. As much as I want to keep my marriage together, I also don’t want to completely lose myself, miss out on life and wake up at sixty filled with regrets. I think the timing is just perfect, the kids are with mummy and daddy and the holiday will be a long one, so they don’t even have to know what’s going on.

I’d go with you to Abuja, I need to leave Chris for a while, maybe then he’d know just how serious this is. I’d know if the marriage really does matter to him or if I’ve been married to myself. I need to get my life back, follow my dreams and start that business. Now is the time and I believe everything is happening for a reason. I don’t know where this will lead to, but I know that All things will work together for my good according to God’s purpose for my life” I heaved a sigh of relief as I finished.

When I looked at my sister, she was crying, I laughed at her and pulled her into a hug. We had gotten to the front of my house and the car was now parked. It was dark and I didn’t realize she had been sobbing as I spoke.

“Ooooh Tonye, I am so proud of you and I am so sorry this is what life has turned out to be for you, I am sorry I can’t fix things for you too. I know how much you love Chris and knowing you, I know for sure you have put everything into making your marriage work.

Whatever your decision is Sissy, I would always be in your corner, you can count on me to support you and also not leave you to go astray. Like you said, I know that all things will work together for you, you have a good heart and God will work things out in your favor, I love you forever sister. I love you”

We stayed in each other’s arms and cried till we became quiet. After a few minutes, we got down and went into the house and spent the rest of the early hours packing a few things I’d travel with, as Preye also packed up her stuff. I did a check round the house and made sure everything was in order. I took a bath and got dressed, then I wrote a note to Chris and left it on the coffee table in our living room. It was simple and straight to the point.

Hey, I won’t waste time with pleasantries. I’m leaving this note here to let you know I’d be gone for a while. I need to figure my life out and know what I really want for myself.

I’ve known you for 13 years and I can say I’ve only been happy being with you for 2 years out of these 13 years, the 2 years before we got married. I don’t need to go into details about how things have been between us, I’m sure you know.

But after last night, seeing you so loved up with that girl at the mall (Yes, Preye and I were there to see a movie), after you had lied to me that you missed your flight and that you were stuck in Portharcourt, I knew it was time to review our status.

So like I said, I’d be gone for a while and I also want you to make a decision and be true to yourself, do you really want to be married to me? The kids are still at my parents and they’d be there for the rest of the holiday, you can always go and see them.

P.S: My folks don’t know anything, I’m away on a business trip.

It was well into the morning by the time we were done, so we had a quick breakfast, I waited for Preye to get dressed and headed to our parents place. I needed to see the kids before leaving. As planned, I told them I was going to Abuja with Preye for business related matters, I planned to call my mum after I arrived, to tell her the truth, when I felt it was right to do so.

As I took my seat on the plane, I let my mind wander to the years before I got married, I remembered all my plans and dreams of owning a footwear factory. I thought of all my friends I had drifted away from because I wanted to focus on making my marriage work, I thought about my kids and the kind of mother I wanted them to grow up to remember as. I thought about the years I had studied and worked so hard to get a Masters Degree in Business Management. As I nodded off to sleep on that flight, I knew I was on the right path to getting my life back.



I was going to be 33 years old in less than 7 days and I was already dreading all the prayer calls and requests to bring home a husband, as I was not getting any younger. I thank God for the parents I had, they didn’t put any pressure on me, but I knew it was their utmost wish to see me get married and have children.

My dad thought I was a little too ambitious even though he always said he was proud of me. My mum thought I was doing excellent but felt I needed a home to be an all round success. I don’t know what it was with me and marriage, but I have never been like other girls who had planned their weddings even before they hit puberty.

All my friends were married, my bestie Nneka has three kids and is considering a last one. I enjoyed being Aunty Lola all my friends’ children, and a few times I had thought about having mine. The problem wasn’t with having children, the problem was finding the man who I was willing to give up my independence for.


That is exactly why I was okay with what Chris and I shared, with our arrangement, It was always on my terms. I didn’t have to seek his permission to do what I wanted or pretend to any one to portray myself as the perfect in – law.

I had woken up with a headache and body pains that morning. Chris had left me at the hotel to go to work and attend a few meetings. He was to go back home to his family right after that, as our weekend rendezvous was over. I had called in sick at work and decided to stay in bed for the rest of the day, It was most likely an after math of the drunken night before and accumulated stress from the previous weeks.

It was well past midday, almost 2 litres of water and 2 tablets of Panadol after, the headache seemed to be getting worse. I dragged myself out of bed, took a shower, got dressed, packed up my bag and went to the hospital, I couldn’t afford to be ill, I had a lot of work to do that week.

By the time I got to the hospital, I was already burning up and sweating even though I had the air conditioner on in my car. I wrote down my details, paid the consultation fee and waited my turn to see the doctor. I sent a text to Chris and Nneka to let them know where I was and promised to call them after my meeting with the doctor.

Woman Waiting Room Illustrations, Royalty-Free Vector Graphics ...

After 25 mins of waiting, I was called in to see the doctor, I told her my symptoms, she checked my vital signs, asked a few questions about my menstrual cycle, history of hormonal imbalance and other random questions, then she sent me to the lab to take some tests.

My temperature had started to return to normal, but the headache was still as bad as when I got there. I knew it had to be Malaria I had left untreated, I hardly ever fell sick but when I did, It was always a mess. It didn’t take too long for the test results to come out and as the doctor handed the paper to me, my heart dropped to the bottom of my stomach, it read that I was pregnant!



From one meeting to another, I had not had a breather since I got into the office at 7.50 am. All the documents I had requested from Adesuwa on Friday night were not ready and It didn’t help that she hadn’t come in to work early.

The deal I had been working on was almost slipping away from my hands and one wrong move, It would be gone. The Chairman wouldn’t be happy with me and I’m never one to lose. Even though I was exhausted from the weekend with Lola (I smiled at the thought of her), I put on my big boy pants and faced every meeting with dexterity and was able to fill up loop holes as I maneuvered my way around the emotions of our clients.

Chris in Meeting

I was in the middle of my 4th meeting when I got a text from Lola saying she was at the hospital. I remember she had complained of a headache when she woke up, but I assumed it was as a result of all the alcohol we had the night before. I wasn’t feeling too good myself and the plan was to take a long hot shower and sleep through the night. I made a mental note to call Lola right after my meeting, and to text Tonye to prepare Oha soup for me for dinner. I could do with some home cooking and my wife made the best home cooked meals.

I was stepping out of my office, ready to go home when Adesuwa approached me on the corridor.

“Good evening Mr Arinze, Please can I have a minute?” She asked.

“Yes sure Adesuwa, but please not longer than a minute, I’m really tired.” I replied and waited for her to speak.

“Err, thank you. First, I want to say I’m sorry for not getting the documents ready, my sincere apologies. Then there’s something quite important I’d like to discuss with you, I was wondering if we could meet for lunch sometime this week, whenever is convenient for you.” She looked nervous.

Lunch?, now I’m curious, but I really have to go. I’d let you know when and where and it had better be worth my time. See you tomorrow then, good night.” I answered and started to walk away, wondering what Adesuwa would want to talk about, perhaps a raise or promotion. That had to be it, and she did deserve it if I had to be honest.

“Good night Mr Arinze”, I heard her say.

As soon as I got into the car, I dialed Lola’s number but there was no answer, I called a few more times, it rang, but still no answer. I started to get really worried. I didn’t know whether to drive to her apartment or go home. I chose the latter, Lola didn’t like it when I showed up at her place without informing her and I had an obligation to respect her space.

I figured she had gotten some medication and was asleep. If I didn’t hear from her by morning, I’d have no choice but to go to her place, at least then, I’d be justified. So, I sent her a message instead sending her my love and asking her to respond as soon as she could.

I was looking forward to going home, eating my wife’s food and spending the night in the comfort of our room. I hoped the kids were still away so I’d at least have some quiet. I parked the car after the security guard had opened the gate and walked up to the door, I pressed the bell a few times but there was no answer.

I went through the back to the kitchen, the door was locked and appeared to be pitch black when I tried to peep through the window. That was really strange. Maybe Tonye was out, but out to where, it was very unlike her, especially when she knew I’d be coming back home. It was then I realized she did not respond to my message requesting for Oha soup.


I went through my briefcase to get my house keys to open the front door, I turned on the light as I walked in and called out Tonye’s name, no answer. I walked into the kitchen and turned on the light, it was quiet and didn’t look like any activity had taken place in the last few hours. I went upstairs to our bedroom, it was empty, I checked the study, the kids’ room and guest room, all empty.

I went back into the living room and was about to call her phone, when I saw the note on the coffee table, I picked it up and opened it and as I read it to the end, I felt a wave of dizziness. That was the last thing I wanted to deal with. How could I have been so careless? I would never have thought she’d be at the mall at that time of the night, Tonye never went anywhere at night, but yea, her social animal sister was in town.

I crumbled the paper in my hand thinking of a way of out. I knew her sister had put her up to this, I had to be more tactical about dealing with the situation. I took a deep breath and just as I was slowly releasing it, my phone beeped, it was a message, I opened it immediately, it was Lola.

“Chris, I am pregnant, 9 weeks pregnant” the text read. I read through again about 3 times trying to understand it, as I sank into the couch behind me.


This one is heavy, what do you think Chris will do? How do you think this will turn out. The pressure is on me to release all the episodes at once๐Ÿ˜‚, but you know I have to serve it straight from the heart, so it holds as much appeal. I am as curious as you are to find out what next.

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As we go into another week, I am sending you loads of love โค. Follow me on Instagram @soledivasblog, listen to my podcast series on Spotify, Google & Apple Podcasts, search for “Life As I See It” and wait for my pretty face ๐Ÿ˜Š to pop up. You’d enjoy listening to me I promise.

Next blog post coming up soon, till then, It’s your girl,



  • Tochie Ekufu
    July 6, 2020

    Ahn Ahn now!!! How do I focus this Monday morning after this kind of cliffhanger? ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ

    Beautiful write-up, I could see it all as I read. Weldone dear. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿพ

  • Bukola Kumolu
    July 6, 2020

    Ohhh my God I have chosen sides and I am ready to beat some sense I to some people. But I love it . Keep it up lovie

    • Nchedo
      July 20, 2020

      Oh my!!!! Chris is getting exactly what he deserves and we are here for it.๐Ÿ˜›

  • Toyin Kayode
    July 6, 2020

    Ewoo! Chris o, he doesnโ€™t know thereโ€™s more to come for him!!! Life is catching up with him and throwing him a curve ball at the same time!
    This suspense is three much o!
    Love it!

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