Less than a week to my birthday and none of my friends was back in town. And no, they wouldn't be making it down in time... I felt so empty and lonely. Ivie had sent me an early birthday present through one of her cousins. As much as I loved my new season Gucci princeton slippers, they could not fill the void I felt knowing i would be spending my birthday alone. A sudden fear gripped me at the thought of being alone forever.. I literally panicked. "Shally too cute, abi what's that your Whatsapp name?" My mum cut into my thoughts as she joined me on the dining table where I was having dinner.
Is this what being in love truly feels like or am I just being overly emotional?.. I can't even put my thoughts and feelings into writing, I'd be back later... Good night!!!
Episode 7 here Dear Diary, I can't get over the lunch date i had today. This mumu Gbenga must really think highly of himself o. Very shallow thinker as well. I don't know how i managed 45 minutes with him and didn't hit his head with the bottle of red wine on the table. Imagine him saying no matter how accomplished a woman is, she must take her place in life as the second class citizen she is...
"These days, the new school say marriage is over rated and should not be high on anybody's priority list or be a do or die affair. As much as I quite agree with that thought with reason, I say marriage can be a beautiful thing and I desire to get married....*sigh* From Benin to Dubai, Ivie's nuptials were absolutely beautiful. Pure, true and natural, you could see the connection between her and Eddy. They've had their fair share of issues, Ai and I have had to intervene a few times in the past, but isn't that what they say makes a solid foundation? I'm wondering if i may have found my happily ever after, but only time will tell. Anyway, party is over, time to continue life where I stopped...Good night Diary..."
*Sigh*... Shame will not even let me clock in here. I have really been humbled. The other night at Ai's house, i got an E-mail alert from my bank, turns out my account balance could not buy me a one way ticket to Abuja, and payday was still about 20 days away. I couldn't mention it to the girls. Going through my statement, it turns out all my money had been going recklessly on shoes. To think i still had debts to pay. I have no savings, no investments, no back up and i work so hard and earn so well. My parents must not know about this, they wouldn't let me hear the last of it. My dad would be so so disappointed. Damn, i bet you are too.
Thank God for Hakeem whose advice redeemed me. I have a lot of work to do on my finances. A whole lot of work. Meanwhile, plans for Ivie's wedding is underway, her dad wants to get it done as soon as possible. Surprisingly, they agreed on something small both for the bride price payment and the church wedding. It will be my first time in Benin and i'm looking forward to it.
After seeing my account balance in black and white, i literally went into freeze mode. I had less than N25,000 in heaven and on earth plus debts that were way over that amount which i had incurred sub-consciously buying this and that and most especially footwear.